Charlie Chronicles: Associations,...

Draft 1:

Charlie apologies to Viswanath for his unrestrained and affected behavior in the past few months. Shit happens, but that doesn't give a man the right to start shitting everywhere....

Charlie, puts it in his own style...


Too much thinking is injurious to brain....

Let me get my thoughts straight.

Suddenly, the world seemed gloomy. I tried all I could to see the light, but without luck. I tried crying out loud, said "fuck these fucking fuckers", blamed everyone and the disorder that creeped in due to the luxury provided by the society. Suddenly, my life lost its meaning, everything seemed pointless. India seemed far away and I felt like a loser.

And then advices poured in.

I started "laughing"; laughter as in the word without meaning, laughed with those 32 teeth showing; at the mindless jokes and pitiful paradoxes. I wasted my time in wanton companies and wonderful denials. I started "enjoying" what I thought was enjoyment. Deep down, something prompted me otherwise. I stamped it down with authority; an affected authority acquired thorugh an amused observance of the sanity of a statistical society.

My, My! I let a crack form in this mighty dam of my will, barricading my emotions.

Sensing a weakness, they gushed out in mighty torrents.
Anger; drilling red hot holes.
Jealousy; jutting out and jading...
Love and Lust; languishing my senses..

The mighty will whimpered and withered under the sudden onslaught.

Oh yeah! they poured in ponderous quantities, consuming all that is surrounding them. They flooded my thoughts, drowned my senses and left me, paradoxically,high and dry, Irritable, Irascible, Inane and inimical.

Ignominy, Inabilty and Inevitablity.

Beaten, battered, bruised. Demolished, Devastated, desolate, despondent, dysmal and dreary,

Fruitless, futile, faint and failure.

Nothing to look around, but gloom; encompassing everything and anything. Light is no where to be found.

So, nothing visible, I looked inside; looked into myself.

I saw a skein of sanity; a ray of light.

This made me confused, confounded and conundrous.

"I cried, I tried. I shouted, I ranted.
I begged god to show me the light, no answer...
I asked everyone to light up my gloom: to no effect,
I searched, in vain, for answers(to light up the gloom); in the wrong places."

Bemused, I closed my eyes, looked inside me, again- looked deep down to that individuality I stamped down.

I concentrated; fighting the mighty will of mob. I reached desperately for the lost me. This time I asked the right person, and he answered me, in a muted voice, under bated breath,

"All is not lost, the unconquerable you, the invincible will"

So, this time I looked around, with my eyes closed,
I looked at the mess I made, with my eyes closed,
and laughed.

Laughed Heartily and mightily.
I Laughed at myself, laughed at the stupidity,laughed at the mess I created,
and was happy.

I laughed loud and clear.
It takes so much to realize oneself, and to have done it with such a small mess,

I laughed sonorously, and shouted in a strident stentorian,
full of myself,

"LET THERE BE LIGHT" and
THERE WAS LIGHT

PERIOD